Today I was feeling upset and unsettled by experiences that happened. I realized that the feelings were coming from a part of me that were not my true Self. They were from false concepts that I had taken on as a result of experiences from High School. Imagine carrying that baggage for so long! Once I realized what was happening, I was able to dispense with these foreign self-concepts, these 'separate selves' in less than a minute each!
The first feeling came when my name was put last on an email at work. How trivial! and yet it struck a nerve in me. It triggered the feeling of being inferior. This feeling came to me in High School (>30 years ago!). This self-concept formed from misuse of the energies of three different energy centers: The purity center, the vision center and the grace center. (These energy centers are described in my book: The Twelve Human Energy Centers.) Knowing that this self-concept was not based in reality, and was not my true Self, I got rid of it in about 30 seconds, using the method decribed in my book: "I Don't Feel Like Myself Today...". It really is that easy to change one's self-concept, although if it isn't changed, it can persist over a really, really long period of time.
The second feeling came when co-workers left without saying good-bye in the evening. It triggered the feeling, and the self-concept of being friendless. This feeling, this self-concept, also came to me in High School. I was able to dispense with it in literally, less than one minute, even though it had persisted in my consciousness for more than thirty years as well!
The third feeling came when I was deciding whether to write this post. I felt great reluctance to share about the first feeling, especially how it relates to a feeling of inferiority with respect to women, i.e. that they see me as low standing. I realized that I had shame over this feeling. This shame had also been with me since High School! To go into a little more detail, it was formed by misuse of five energies of consciousness: wisdom, love, grace, decision, and joy. I was able to get rid of it again, within 20 seconds.
It's amazing how we can suffer for as long as we want, resisting looking at ourselves. With the right tools in hand, we can get to a much better place in a really short period of time!
I feel so much lighter now. I look forward to tomorrow, to see what it will expose in my consciousness! If you have any questions about what I shared, feel free to comment below. If you have any other comments, I welcome them also!
Bruce