I feel reluctant to share this, but I feel it is necessary.

I love God as transcendence, I have had transcendent experiences that are beyond description.

I do my best to love other people. I am not aware of any resentment I have toward anyone right now.

I have some kind of hatred that is hard to describe, for the world of form itself, which some spiritual teachings describe as the Mother element, or the Divine Mother. I think it is because I see it as separate, and resent the limitations it imposes.

Why share something like that? I am putting out my intention to recover from this. Maybe something will come of it.